Hrmm...

This always happens....I go from being SUPER DUPER EXCITED to.....meh and then back to ....SUPER DUPER EXCITED!

So, for example this past week I've been very HAPPY and then today I just started thinking about "things" and how I feel about them. I mean yeah something set it off, I know what it was, I cant say to all of you because im not really allowed...but it really shook me and made me really upset. I'll go from such a high to such a low...I can't help it, I've always done it....and during these "low" times, I have the frame of mind that I did something wrong or I caused something to happen, I feel like I've deserved it or something...
My friends tell me its not me, and I didnt do anything, but i find it hard to believe them sometimes..I mean people lie...its a fact of life....people lie because they can, some people like to lie and get a thrill from it...So, how can I know whats good or bad? or right or wrong? when everyone is lying to me? I cant trust everyone...I don't know who to trust anymore...